Monday, February 17, 2025

A Triptych Of Psalms is on Bandcamp Today for FREE!

 


Alaretin - Psalm 66: How Awesome Is He

https://alaretin.bandcamp.com

Rejoice In Our Suffering - Psalm 77: The Depths Were Also Troubled

https://rejoiceinoursuffering.bandcamp.com

Oak Of Weeping - Psalm 88: A Reflective Poem, Set To Chant Mournfully

https://oakofweeping.bandcamp.com

As with any of my split releases, I don't know what I'm doing that would cause me to be lucky enough to collaborate with these artists. I'm privileged to be on a split with Alaretin and Oak of Weeping, they have become close friends in a very short time, and the honor of being on what is their debut release is overwhelming. God's will brought us together for this, and these bands are going to eclipse my own in popularity in a very short time.

We decided collectively to make this available for free download.

I really can't wait to see what else these projects deliver in the coming months and years.

Saturday, February 15, 2025

Fruits Of The Spirit - Joy! EP - More information about the new Dungeon Synth/Comfy Synth project.

Though a big part of Rejoice In Our Suffering's output is dark ambient, I've been working for some time on some more upbeat material that isn't so spooky. Largely influenced by many of the releases on Dungeons Deep and Taste Of Beer, this material probably isn't as complex as most of what those labels put out, but I thought it would be a good genre to create music for. Something else that heavily influenced this project was the children's show David the Gnome, based on the artwork and books under the title, "The Secret Book of Gnomes" by Wil Huygen and Rien Poortvliet.

Curious?: YouTube - The World of David The Gnome, Opening and Closing Theme

I have also been thinking heavily about the fruits of the spirit, those outlined in Galatians 5:22-23, so I thought about how some of the tracks I was producing made me feel. I hate to disappoint by not having a deeper meaning behind the naming of the tracks for this music, but I simply listened to what I've been working on and assigned names that I felt were appropriate and the type of mood I was in as I created and worked on them. 

These ponderings, I wouldn't call them meditations, led to the creation of, "Joy!" I'm not unhappy to admit that the title track is the best thing I've produced for this project so far, and is indicative of where the project is likely to go in the future. 

To be clear, this is definitely a side project. This won't be taking over anything for Rejoice In Our Suffering or taking anything away from it, it will just exist as it does now: a little side project. 

That being said, I have about an album worth of loose material that I need to refine and finish, but I don't know how long that will take. Given the nature of how I work and the nature of this project itself, it could be the day after tomorrow, it could be a week, it could be a month, it could be a year. 

This project is fun, is appropriate for kids and adults, and I can't wait to see where I can take it in the future...Pure Joy! I hope this amalgamation of fantasy and Christian values performs its intended purposes and makes you smile. 

So if you've read all of that (or if you haven't), I'll just start from here with the first actual release from the project:
 

The final track listing of Joy! is as follows:

Side A:

Joy I - 2:57
Patience II - 1:17

Side B:

Goodness I - 2:17
Gentleness I - 2:03

Physical Release:

10 Copies on Pro-CDR - Not Numbered
25 Copies on Pro-Duplicated Cassette with alternate cover, hand assembled and hand numbered. I will figure out some other sort of little bonus goodies to come with this because I realize it's a short EP and cassettes aren't exactly cheap to get made.

These will both likely be available in March. 


*Special notes: 

Official Release Date is 02/13/2025

The release originally had a fifth track called "Faithfulness I" but it was removed because it didn't fit and I wasn't satisfied with its production. I have touched it up and it will now go on the upcoming album. 

The track listing originally had "Patience II" and "Goodness I" switched, this was altered to fit the tape release and edited so they would sound consistent in their new positions. 

Also Note: The streaming versions do have the old version of "Faithfulness I" in the track listing. This will eventually be fixed, so if you want to hear the absolute worst version of this song that will ever exist, enjoy while you can. 

Friday, February 14, 2025

Sin, In The Face of Blessings...

I've received so many blessings recently...

I just posted about the Lithoscry interview, I was also interviewed by Blacforje Magazine if you'd like to read it... https://www.blacforjemagazine.com/interviews/interview-rejoice-in-our-suffering

And in both of those interviews, I've been up front that this project is about confronting sin. To a degree it's been successful, and I still find myself struggling with the same long-term sins I had before I ever started the project. 

I've heard it said that you can always tell that adults struggle with what they've dealt with since they were kids, and I suppose that's true. 

I find myself thinking at the beginning of the day, "I won't do these things today." - I often do them less, but I also just as often screw up and do them all over again, as if the inner machinations of my mind and heart drive me toward them as some sort of cruel addiction. It is addiction, in its most literal sense with tobacco, but with other things as well. The Adamic nature is an addiction to sin. 

This is how evil works its way in, staring us in the face and laughing at us. Humans are weak. These ancient evils know our ways, they know scripture, they know the most insidious formations of manipulation and oppression that they can employ against us, and we embrace it with a smile and deal with the guilt and nausea holding hands and walking together later. 

Then we pray. 

And every time, without fail, I sincerely repent. Some would say it can't be sincere if I fall back into these things (Tobacco, an unhealthy relationship with food, wrath, whatever it may be...) but it is. I resolve to work on them, and I do, but here's a pack of cigarettes staring me in the face, here's a drink I shouldn't have, here's me partaking in those two other activities as a result of something that made me mad today. 

So the only thing I'm armed with to deal with them is prayer. I do this constantly, and still I fail. 

God has given me everything, and made apparent to me this list of things I shouldn't do, and corrected me on many things I shouldn't have done. 

So where's the difficulty? We are to lay these things at God's feet, and I always feel like I'm ready to do so and sincerely try to do it. 

Then I light up another cigarette. 

Or I have another drink. 

Or I plot revenge (I never take revenge, but I plot it.) 

Then I realize I've failed, and try to stop doing those things. 

Thank God, he's not done dealing with me yet. Though sometimes, when I'm receiving a deluge of blessings, it still feels so far away. I am very thankful, I am sincere in my desire to give up unhealthy, damaging things. 

These are the silent depths of existential dread, accompanied with hearing his call to action. 

And where will that calling take me? 

Thursday, February 13, 2025

I was interviewed by Lithoscry

This is one of the best channels on YouTube. 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MAuTUUP1AvA

This may be the only video interview I ever do. I never realized how much I glance around when I'm trying to think. Loony. 

Friday, February 7, 2025

Clinical depression is a strange beast...

I know I've harped on all of this before, but it really is. Things couldn't be going any better for me at the moment on paper and I'm still discouraged and tired for a large portion of my waking hours. I still have trouble going to sleep at night and doing the things that I need to do just to have an organized life. 

I have 4 splits coming out in a very short period of time, all with spectacular bands, I have at least two more albums worth of material written and ready to record, I've been doing a few interviews and getting featured by people I don't even know in parts of the world I never would have expected...

...and still, I get so wrapped up in despair I can hardly move. 

I'm happily married, I have beautiful pets that want to just sit and be pet and hang out with me, more friends than I have time for, a great mentor, a nice house... Tons of books to read, tons of video games to play, food in the fridge, everything. I have everything I've ever wanted out of life and things continue to get better!

...and still, I sit for hours with my eyes closed and can't move, often electing to sleep during the useful hours of the day instead of working on the pile of work I have to complete. And I can't do anything about it, I'll sit around and cry and pray and still be completely unable to do even the simplest of tasks that I need to perform. 

Some may call this laziness, I don't think that's the case. It's not laziness, I'm capable of massive amounts of work in a short time and my work is always better than most would expect... I think.

And although my prayer life is rich, and I pray all the time, and it's one of the most important if not the most important thing I do in my life, I'm terrible at praying for myself and laying my problems down at the Lord's feet. It's not that I have some sort of misplaced pride that I think I can handle everything myself, it's that I genuinely see my own problems as insignificant. 

My niece died a couple of weeks ago and her parents are dealing with the grief and everything that entails, there are people starving and I'm a big fat man who regularly overeats due to stress or boredom or any other number of terrible reasons I could give, there are people who can't find places to live, jobs to work at, or even if they have those things they don't have enough money to maintain them. So why, when I have so much in my life to be thankful for, and I am thankful, do I still feel like laying down with my eyes closed and not moving? 

I think it's important for us, not just Christians, but for everyone who deals with this sort of thing to be open and honest about it. The attitude that our faith just isn't enough, or that we don't pray enough, or that we're lazy just doesn't work as an explanation and doesn't come anywhere close to being a tool to deal with it or a solution. All the medication in the world may help a little (it does, sometimes) but ultimately there is a sickness that pervades most humans' experience. 

Thank God for life, even if we have to claw our fingers in the dirt and scream into the soil to drag ourselves through it. Something with the heights of beauty we've been given as a gift to perceive can't truly be seen if we don't have depths of personal torture to compare it to. It's just particularly hard when even the beauty of the entire universe can't be seen because our eyes are closed in silence, wishing for all of it to just leave us alone. 


Wednesday, February 5, 2025

Coming sooner than you thought: A Triptych of Psalms

01. Alaretin - Psalm 66: How Awesome Is He
02. Rejoice In Our Suffering - Psalm 77: I Cry Aloud To God, and He Will Hear Me
03. Oak of Weeping - Psalm 88: A Reflective Poem, Set To Chant Mournfully

This is receiving a digital release. 

Alaretin (Pennsylvania, USA) - https://alaretin.bandcamp.com/track/alaretin-death-by-fire-album-tease
Rejoice In Our Suffering (West Virginia, USA)- https://rejoiceinoursuffering.bandcamp.com
Oak of Weeping (Szeged, Hungary) - Link coming soon. 

This will be the first release for Alaretin and Oak of Weeping, they are much better musicians than I am and this split is coming together quickly and fantastically. We all play very different types of black metal, we all have different musical backgrounds, and all of the projects are, of course, Christian. 

This is the most fun I think I can have expressing sorrow and praising God at the same time. 

It's ironic, but I've taken this moment to Rejoice In Our Suffering

Get it?